Apathy is crap!

Just saying..

I just want to point out that integration means:
"In Swedish politics and debate, the word is often used to denote the process by which immigrants get citizenship, becoming part of Swedish society, where the Swedish society adapt to the change in the population composition of immigration."

Assimilation however, means:
"refers to the process by which a minority, completely abandoning their own culture, so that all of the original cultural differences disappear"

SD are talking about assimilation. And many other games with. But they use the word integration. Not ok.

Oh hello..

Hey. I've been away from this blog for a while now. Haven't got any time or mood for it. I think, when I feel good and calm I don't "need" to write. Because I must say that I have this blog mostly for me, to have somewhere to ventilate my thoughts and feelings. It's relieving. Things that I maybe want people to know but don't really know how or when to tell them. And sometimes for myself, to write it, think about it and after I feel much better about stuff.

Sweden treats me really good. Been the best summer in years. Lots of sun! Good times at work. And good times with family and friends. Needed. I feel like I know more know about me, how I feel, what I want and what's and who's important for me.

One more month left here. Time flies!! Got lot's of time off in august so I will have time to do what I want to and to hang out with people that I don't know when I see again.

I don't know how long I will stay in SA this time. No plan. I take it as it comes. Life in a bag again. I love it. Freedom. Easy. Happy. No worries about what I should do in the future. There is no need of making plans for next year, it will change on the way anyway. Since 3 years back I don't plan more than 3-6 months.. I don't need more. I don't think anyone need more than that if you think about it. You cant know what's gonna happen on the way anyway. And if you think you can plan your whole life you will probably just end up disappointed. Like you failed. That's just stressing! Life for the day or the week at least and you will see that life will be more fun and easy for you. The only thing you need to know that you have somewhere to live, some money to survive and friends around that cares about you!

With that I say; ENJOY LIFE! NOW.

It's been a while.

Yeah. Life is good right now. I don't spend much time at home and not in front of the laptop. It's been work and wine and dance and seeing old friends. The weather has been great the last week too. Lovely. If Sweden always was 25 degrees, sun and friends, yeah, then I could live here. I will try to write a little bit more later this week. Later...

YOU. I miss you. I love you. 

I'm still there

I'm so damn scared of being hurt and left alone. I just understood that today. I knew it before, but thought I was over it. I have not felt like this in a long time. With anyone. It's been years. This is different. And I am terrified. And for some reason I can't really talk about my feelings anymore. I keep it way too much inside of me. But I think that if I don't say it, then no one knows and then it's not that real and I can get over it faster.

When will I ever stop preparing myself for getting left alone? And will I understand I won't be left ALONE. It's ONE person, not my whole life or all my friends. But, well, if you care about someone that much it feels like everything, I guess.

Nothing

I don't have lots to write about. It's mostly about work, eat and sleep right now. Malin visited me for 3 days. Was nice! We went touristing in Sweden. Awesome! This upcoming week I'm going to Stockholm. Full schedule. I will tell more about it after! That's it for me right now, don't have any inspiration to write.. Sorry.

 Missing that little black dude a lot by the way. LOT.